About this blog

These are reflections on my experience with pain in dance (both dancing and watching) as well as other arts. This is the less theoretical, more personal application of the headier, abstracter, academicer stuff in my dissertation, tentatively titled "Phantom Limbs: Reading Pain in Contemporary Concert Dance." The dissertation tries to assemble phenomenology with the material conditions of the theater to provide a rich account of experiencing dance (which is as visceral as visual). So my point with the blog is not so much to provide a review or criticism of the pieces as much as it is a grounds for exploring and articulating my experience as an individual spectator and as a brief resident in the world effused by the piece.

I'd love to hear about your experiences regarding the pieces I'm writing about, and I also welcome your recommendations.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

“Ket-Sui/Die Entscheidung,” Ten Pen Chi art labor

“Ket-Sui/Die Entscheidung,” Ten Pen Chi art labor
16 October 2010
Direction, Concept, and Installation: JoaXhim Manger
Choreography: Yumiko Yoshioka and Team
Dock 11, Berlin

“Not a Hit…but there shoulda been!”

I found out about the show through tanzforum.de. Strangely, there were only two performances listed this evening in Berlin and the surrounding area. I chose this show over “” because, the online material for the latter show made it appear to be more of a film/performance piece than straight up dance, and after being quarantined for the entire week with a cold, I was ready to see some live movement. Tickets were purchased at the door, the Studentermäßigung bringing it from 15€ to 5€. The comparatively high price for a ticket at a performance at Dock 11 led me to a heightened expectation of the quality and notoriety of the choreography and performance.
At the door, we were asked in German and English to turn off our mobile devices, and then invited to sit where we’d like and encouraged to move around during the piece as we saw fit. My curiosity was peaked, especially since seating is a central concern for me as a researcher, but it also creates different spectators. More mobile to be sure, but also engaging with our more human, perhaps less critical eye. (Merleau-Ponty writes that we can use an objective eye—which seems to cover both the “objective” eye of science as well as Sartre’s somewhat neurotic gaze of the other—but that our daily means of seeing other people is one which instantly recognizes them as being like ourselves.[1]) Alas, this piece played primarily front and center, and those who were more creative with their seating arrangements soon regretted the liberty they’d taken and moved toward the “front” of the stage.
The set itself was remarkable (and the image of it on the website contributed to my coming to the performance). The stage was a platform about three feet in height, covered with Astroturf (if that is the correct name for the faux-grass used on miniature golf courses), populated by round objects and bored through with holes approximately two feet in diameter. In the center hung a long pole with an end shaped like a putter, apparently composed of foam tubing covered by tape. A sound engineer (later shown to be a DJ) stood behind his deck in the back right corner.
The piece began with a single hand slowly rising out from one of the holes. The first tacit question was thus answered: are the dancers already under the stage, or will they enter from off-stage? Although at first I took the hand as something of an androgynous aesthetic object, I soon gendered the arm as male based on the rather defined triceps as the upper arm. Another arm emerged, and I noticed that it was also a right hand, and thus belonging to a different person (although using opposite hands would have suspended this judgment and widened my expectation of what lurked beneath these two holes into something monstrous…think of Luke, Hans, Leah, and Chewy in the intergalactic compost bin). As feet emerged from the holes, something akin to racial determination emerged: I concluded that these were the appendages of the same persons by noticing first the conformity of the parts of the slightly darker-hued performer, and then applied this same matching technique to the dancer whose arm first emerged. This section of entering the stage by parts continued until at least portion of each of the dancers was visible. After the arms and legs, pelvises covered by flesh-colored cloth slowly materialized, prompting my final question, “will the dancers be topless or not?” This question was put to bed by a gargantuan nipple.
To be perhaps overly neat, the first few minutes posed and answered at least four questions. Are the dancers under the stage? (yes) What sex is this person? (male in the first instance) Do the extremities emerging from different holes belong to the same person? (no, provisionally answered via skin pigmentation) Will there be female nudity? (yes)
(While at least the last of these three questions would be summoned before academic tribunals under charges of sexism, racism, and male-gaze-ism,[2] this blog is something of an investment in honesty. I don’t find the questions or even answers particularly harmful in themselves. Additionally, such readings might be helpful for choreographers to bear in mind.)
All of the dancers eventually emerged. Based on the name of the company and the central photos, I had in mind that this was a company based in Asia. When the dancers disinterred themselves it became clear that this was not an Asian company peopled by virtuosic teens and twenty-somethings. All of the men had their heads shaved or clipped very close, and their hairlines suggested they were no longer in their early twenties. (I’m annoyingly aware of my attention being drawn to this fact since own hairline began its strategic retreat long ago, aging me in a way that my visage alone wouldn’t.) No doubt in part due to the fact that, at 34, I can be called an "old" dancer, I prefer seeing dancers with some experience (in the studio, on the stage, and in life). Unfortunately he ineluctable charm of the piece—or my willing submersion in the slowly stirring world of the earlier section of the piece—was disrupted as the dancers started to snake across the stage. While the bodily aptitude of some was evident in how they sloughed out of their holes, the premonition based on the awkwardness of others’ emersions was not to be ignored. Some of the performers looked wooden compared to the careful, serpentine undulations of others. This performativity continued into their interactions with the turf-covered balls. Some interacted with them awkwardly, but without conveying the sense that this was indeed some primal encounter.
Rather than walking the reader through the piece, I would like to center upon a few themes and moments relevant to the purpose of this blog. The first is when the dancers were all grouped upstage in a kind of techno-trance. They incorporated the swimming brontosaurus like hand gestures with their club-inspired movement, which was very effective for me. Having centered my attention at the beginning of the piece upon the watery hand and its supple wrist, I had a new appreciation for its exquisite movement, and how the body strains—not in vain—for this fluidity. This visual orgy was disrupted doubly by the first swinging of the gigantic putter, which is where my interest in the piece puttered out. The dancer aiming the pendulum-putter at the ravers maneuvered it with a theatrical—well, balletic—affectation that seemed from a universe distant from the primordial world we’d inhabited up to this point. The ravers all successfully, then predictably, evaded the foam-padded pendulum, which was recovered and swung again with an effort decipherable even in the cheap seats at an opera house.
Unfortunately, we weren’t in an opera house. I was able to suspend my disbelief for the Safety First® golf club, but I simply couldn’t with the emoting. Throughout the remainder of the piece, the performers made greatly efforted evasions of obviously non-threatening objects and opponents. I kept thinking of the movie, Staged Beauty. I had watched the previous night, where the female-playing male actor Ned Kyneston is criticized for willfully submitting Desdemona to her death for the sake of beauty, and not even putting up a fight. In the same sense, I wanted to see more of a fight, at least some actual interaction between the dancers. In a post-Bausch world, you can’t pull punches, and you can’t swoon either. (The Bausch comparison is perhaps unfair, but the elevated stage of Astroturf certainly does evoke her Sacre.) And nearly fifty years after the advent of Contact Improvisation, I can’t take a dancer seriously who can’t engage with another dancer. Instead Entscheidung is a dance about human relations without humans physically interacting.
Yet my hesitation about just how familiar some of these dancers were with their nooks and crannies did make one moment quite thrilling. During one episode, a dancer holding a putter took calibrated swings at arms, legs, and heads which ducked back into their holes evade his highly emotive chops (he stopped before he would have hit them anyway). The disgruntled golfer then stomped around the stage wielding a golf club in each hand, and their whiffing through the air quite visibly shook up the spectators. Two audience members left directly after this point, and I wonder if they shared my distrust in the putter-gone-postal. Although I couldn’t distinguish all of the dancers (there were six), some of them did not have my trust as being in control of their bodies. Was this guy swinging clubs a few feet from my face one of them? This is obviously snobbish, but the dance stage sets a high bar for movement; I don’t think it has to be virtuosic or even “dancey,” but my expectation is that it’s thoroughly intended.
The floor itself provided me with the only encounters with pain in the piece. I winced inwardly watching one dancer slide across the Astroturf, be surmised that it must not be painful based not upon the lack of any grimace on her face, but because this was a repeat performance and she had neither padding nor scars on her knees. Some of the spectators shouted in shock as the putting iron slammed against the ground after “narrowly” missing the arms, legs, and heads of the semi-subterranean dancers. The dancers also navigated between these holes without once stumbling. In fact, if it were the choreographer’s desire to pull the spectators into the piece more, some acknowledgment of this potential danger could be made readable.  The stage captivated me as something of a mysterious entity. Dancers emerged from, I assume, grands plies, but the movement was so uniform that it appeared as if they were raised by elevators. It also seemed magnanimous to occupy a space associated with more modest scenery (and budgets).
After quietly sitting through a piece of whatever length, this is the time for the house to…what? Emote? Respond? Evaluate? Laud? Condemn? Vocally and corporally exercise? When the time for applause came, I felt immediately bifurcated into a displeased person and a supportive person. I like to think of myself as a supportive viewer, as someone who generally enjoys dance, but in retrospect I was put off by the piece. I’d been rather bored for at least half an hour, but I felt somehow irked and indignant. I couldn’t believe—and was for whatever reason offended—that a choreographer would coach dancers toward such kitchy interactions. Shall I applaud or not? We’ll chalk it up to my southern hospitality that I clapped. This was no doubt aided by the fact that one of the dancers looked right at me, and I was struck with humanity. That, as a dancer, it’s pretty seldom that you get to be in a piece you can stand behind, and not just dance in. Ariel also brought up a good point: sometimes choreographers have to set a piece just to get it out of their systems, because it won’t let you pass until it’s been acknowledged and worked through.


[1]  “Positing the other does not reduce me to the status of an object in his field, nor does my perception of the other reduce him to the status of an object in mine ” (Phenomenology of Perception, p. 405). Objectification only happens with an “inhuman look ” (414).
[2] On gazes, male and otherwise, check out the following website:
Most of the material here is based out of film studies, which is far ahead of dance studies in considering the different sorts of gazes we employ when perceiving others.

Monday, October 11, 2010

"Pandora 88" by Fabrik Company


  “Pandora 88,” choreographed and performed by Wolfgang Hoffmann and Sven Till of Fabrik Company. (Oct. 10, 2010, 16:00 at Fabrik Potsdam) 
I’d bought the tickets online and was pleased that my not having printed out a copy wasn’t a problem at the box office (actually a worker behind a table). There was some confusion over the seating, since the rows started at zero, not one, and the person sitting in one of our seats didn’t want to move. This irritation was sitting with me for part of the performance, like when I feel guilty residue within me even if I’m not thinking of what I feel guilty for, or even if it takes some effort to recall it. I can’t say that it distracted from my viewing, or added anything at the time, though the theme of hell being other people had crept off the stage and into the house even before the lights were dimmed.
This was a particularly audible audience, filled with children who frequently laughed at the dancers’ interactions. I imagine the children’s liberty allowed for the adults to do the same. Being a matinee, the mood was perhaps a little less stiff, though I wonder if the presence of children didn’t greatly enhance the palate of responses and interpretations. Conceivably others in the audience were less appreciative of the number of children, but I reserved my annoyance for the couple next to me carrying on not commentary, but irrelevant conversation periodically throughout the piece. That is, at least, until Ariel and I broke the fourth (or is it fifth?) wall: she shushed, and I sat myself up noticeably (and with a bit more oomph than I’d meant to) and, I’ll admit, glared.
The box was an entity all its own. One of the dancers gestured to it (actually before acknowledging the humans in the sound and lighting box), and it made perfect sense to do so. It morphed into a kind of blue screen for a music video, a closet, a science-fiction pod, a room in a fun house or hall of mirrors, a padded room, a prison cell, and a coffin. This was due in part to how the dancers used it as one might use a tool or piece of furniture, but the box also morphed to accommodate the sinews of the narrative. It was difficult to resist running up to it after the piece was over. Indeed, I had more of a desire to probe and consult it than the dancers, wondering how it did certain things, what it was composed of, how it came to be there.
At one point one of the performers ran repeatedly into a corner of the box. Many in the audience laughed at this. I thought that he was receiving most of the impact with his shoulders, not with his head, as it appeared, so it didn’t appear to be particularly painful to me. Also, the box reverberated slightly with most movement, so I was conditioned to effects seeming larger than their causes. I didn’t find the episode particularly funny. I did notice a strange empathy for the box, wondering whether it would be able endure under these two men’s pressing and slamming against it. (Thinking horse of in Tarkovsky’s Andrei Rublev which so often caused more of an effect on viewers than the depictions of human death.) Ariel thought that he was hitting it with his head, but that he was probably used to it after doing it for so long. Dancers are supposed to be tough anyway.
There were times I wanted the piece to end. Not because of exhaustion or dislike, but it seemed to me that it had come to its place to stop. One that is prominent is that, after fighting for a while, the two seemed to have reached an unhappy compromise, where one would support himself by the walls, floating above the other who was crumpled below as if in space or prison bunk beds. I thought it was time to stop. I was afraid of a happy ending or trite moral being placed atop my dark piece. But the finale surpassed my choreographic imagination. The couple used the same arc-like shapes of their hands, which had earlier featured in a game where they surrounded and captured each other, to hoist one of the dancers onto the other’s shoulders, where he could then climb out. I had a moment of…I guess it was fear, that the one who’d been lifted would simply forget the other, or maliciously leave him there. Perhaps there would be a long pulling up which may or may not be successful. (In the “Hide and Seek” vignette, one of the characters “submerged” himself and was pulled out, which began (I believe) the charades games.) Again, my possible endings were not fulfilled, thankfully. The liberated one did reach down, but the other turned away. There was a gaze outward by the dancer on top. I told Ariel afterward that I thought it was slightly heroic for my taste (which was what I was afraid it would be), but she thought it was rather blank. This could be an instance of my feared prognosis projecting onto a rather blank canvass (like the Kuleshov effect). I found the ending very moving, though I’m not exactly sure why. I remembered hearing of a play, perhaps I read it, of East Germans building a tunnel to escape, yet one of those who did so stayed behind, preferring life in the Soviet Germany. I also thought of Sartre’s dictum, “Hell is other people,” and that the way to get out of hell might not be a change of locale, but getting rid of the other. On the train ride back, I was talking to Ariel about how much I used to journal and write poetry, that I was more morose then, but that something seems missing now. I don’t think I necessarily connected my reaction with that feeling, but perhaps there was the wish for solitude to be myself. A significantly different conclusion to life than my studies and daily living bear out.

The overwhelming (both in number and conspicuousness) presence of the children was clarified as three of them rushed onto stage as soon as the bows were completed, greeting and holding hands with, presumably, their fathers. The freedom to laugh at the partnering is not accountable only in terms of Bergson’s mechanical-versus-autonomous movement theory. The kids were laughing at their dads.